haggiswashere
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Lately I feel like I am losing my grip. Everything is driving me crazy, I feel like people I talk to are making less and less sense. I have noticed people around me seem to be going "crazy" which freaks me out because if everyone else seems crazy then maybe I am the problem. I have been having vivid nightmares lately as well.
Last night I dreamt that I was in my childhood home, though I was an adult. I heard a woman screaming horrifically. I ran outside and ran toward the screams which seemed to be coming from a farm/field down the road. A blonde woman pulled up in a nice silver luxury car when I crossed the street and she looked toward where I was running. I could tell by her face that she could hear the screams as well. She looked at me and said she would check the house, and I told her I would check the barn. The woman ran off and I ran through a corn field that wasn't fully grown, and reached the barn. The screams were ear-piercing by then and I knew I chose correctly. I didn't slow down, I just charged through the door. The next thing I knew, I was in bed next to my wife. Everything was the same and I believed I was really awake, but I had two files (manilla folder style) sitting on my chest, and one had a picture of the barn on it. I thought to myself, oh "they" wanted me to see it. (I don't know what that means. I got dressed and put on my boots and drove to an address in the folder (that I can't remember now) and I saw the farm and barn but they were abandoned and I said to someone,' oh I remember this. It burned. It all burned.' And then I woke up for real. I just felt such dread, and I couldn't shake it. I wanted to help the woman but I don't know why I couldn't. I don't know what I meant about it being burnt. I just felt sick to my stomach, like it was a warning. I know it sounds stupid, but with everyone acting the way they have been lately (or the way I have been perceiving them) I feel like I am being disconnected and I am "leaving". I just can't shake this feeling that I am about to die, or that something big is about to change, and my omen just made me feel worse. Almost as if, no matter how hard I try to save everyone, it's all going to burn and there is nothing I can do. I am not mentally ill, or on any medication. I can't figure out why I am tripping out so bad. Anyone else ever feel like this? Like the lines of reality are getting fuzzy? Just so no one gets worried, I have no intention of harming myself or anyone else. I just feel a great sense of dread.
Last night I dreamt that I was in my childhood home, though I was an adult. I heard a woman screaming horrifically. I ran outside and ran toward the screams which seemed to be coming from a farm/field down the road. A blonde woman pulled up in a nice silver luxury car when I crossed the street and she looked toward where I was running. I could tell by her face that she could hear the screams as well. She looked at me and said she would check the house, and I told her I would check the barn. The woman ran off and I ran through a corn field that wasn't fully grown, and reached the barn. The screams were ear-piercing by then and I knew I chose correctly. I didn't slow down, I just charged through the door. The next thing I knew, I was in bed next to my wife. Everything was the same and I believed I was really awake, but I had two files (manilla folder style) sitting on my chest, and one had a picture of the barn on it. I thought to myself, oh "they" wanted me to see it. (I don't know what that means. I got dressed and put on my boots and drove to an address in the folder (that I can't remember now) and I saw the farm and barn but they were abandoned and I said to someone,' oh I remember this. It burned. It all burned.' And then I woke up for real. I just felt such dread, and I couldn't shake it. I wanted to help the woman but I don't know why I couldn't. I don't know what I meant about it being burnt. I just felt sick to my stomach, like it was a warning. I know it sounds stupid, but with everyone acting the way they have been lately (or the way I have been perceiving them) I feel like I am being disconnected and I am "leaving". I just can't shake this feeling that I am about to die, or that something big is about to change, and my omen just made me feel worse. Almost as if, no matter how hard I try to save everyone, it's all going to burn and there is nothing I can do. I am not mentally ill, or on any medication. I can't figure out why I am tripping out so bad. Anyone else ever feel like this? Like the lines of reality are getting fuzzy? Just so no one gets worried, I have no intention of harming myself or anyone else. I just feel a great sense of dread.
