In my little experience, I've known that we need some driving force. Something to die for. That is a problem for me. Depression makes it difficult to motivate. And also, I've seen, heard and experienced so much shit that I don't know what to believe in and I don't know what to do with my life. How can I find a philosophy fitting for my life. What methods did you guys used. I'm sorry for these posts but I'm 18. Starting to live and trying to forget all the suffering I've been through and that I still face every day.