( WARNING! My dream contained blood and rape. Please do not read this if you are under 18. Of course I won't wrote about deeper details the process or anything, but it has a deep effect on me and I'd like to find out it's reason, so please, if you have any idea, feel free to share with me. I'll put some info about me at the end, to help you.)
I was in an abandoned, great temple with a person who I know for a long time. He wanted me to visit there with him, so I did, but I had a very bad feeling about the idea and the place, anyway. It was old, ruined, dirty, filled with spider webs, insects, rats, however it was a wonderful building before, seeing the furniture, sculptures, glass, chandeliers and so on.
After a long exploration, we thought that we should find a place where we can sleep. The first vision about the creature inside this building appeared before me, like a dream (a dream in a dream).
― It has a pale, grey skin, which wasn't smooth but slightly wrinkled, dry. It has black eyes how I remember, but I'm not sure about that. Had a huge, black, dirty coat/cape stuff on him, which hided the top of it's head. It opened it's mouth, and I noticed some huge, bath like teeth in his mouth. Similar like on this image
(on the middle), but there was two of them, both side in my attacker's mouth and I see almost nothing between them. It showed up from the dark, like a shadow, and attacked me, while I was asleep.
Then I realized suddenly, that it was just a dream-like vision, and I can continue our way with my cousin, even when I just wanted to leave that unholy place as soon as possible. We found a small room, with an old, dirty bed then. It was huge, but was perfect for our goal, to take a nap before we'll leave finally. We layed down to sleep.
Then, in the middle of the night, I just woke up and saw that creepy "thing" showing up above me, in the end of the bed. I saw that face, those teeth, the black robe, and I screamed, so my cousin just woke up and realized what's goin on. He wanteds to run but the creature looked at him, and stopped him with some kind of force. He fell down on his knees. I saw this, then I looked back to our attackers, with scared face, backing in the bed. He smiled with opened mouth. I can saw those theeth, still.It grabbed me, and ripped my clothes off. I screamed again, and tried to defend myself without any success. I felt it's sharp claws sinking in my flesh. I tried to turn away my head, and take a look at my cousin, just to avoid the creature's face and see what's happened with him. Then I saw a big blood pool around him. He looked like that thing controlled him, and my cousin started to do strange stuffs with old runes, cards, and symbols, but I felt he is dead now. He is gone. He was pale white.I felt the creature moving... between my legs. It was violent and cold. It grabbed my neck with one of his hand, so hard as well, while he moved inside me, and I just put my hands on his arms, and closed my eyes, filled with thears, while I was under it. I prayed to God, to forgive me, I prayed to Him, and asked Him just to let me to see Him while this happens, soothe my pain and fear. I knew that I did something wrong before or don't know, maybe I deserve this, no matter.The act was long, and when the creature "finished", it leaned towards me, and with it's strong jaws and sharp teeth, it bit my neck, so deep, then stopped it and watched how my blood started flowing. I saw it's boiling desires and lust, it's hunger, thirst or whatever... it started to lick and suck my neck, to drink my blood, and how it's animalistic, sexual desires has awaken yet again, it started to rape me while drinking. Visions came into my mind, I felt myself calm and terrified in the same time.
Then the creature finished again, and while it stood up, watched me, my tired, bloody body on the dirty bed. My cousin's body laid on the floor, who knows since a while. It spoke to me first at this time. It told to me something like, I can try to escape now if I want, he'll leave me for now. It grinned, and turned back, left me alone.
I was scared. Too scared to woke up and start to find a way out of this huge, dark building, which is clearly a part of this creature somehow... no, I can't escape. And I don't want to risk any attempt, at all. Got no braveness for it. I'm layed on that bed, full of body fluids, and waited, while sinking in my thoughts. But my thoughs were peaceful, so bright and pleasant. Long minutes has passed away, then the door opened again, and it saw me. The entity smiled, but it's dark eye was filled with evilness, bad things, desires, lust, hunger, thirst. Everything.I was not scared anymore. God knows why.
Some informations about me / May be useful
My personality type is [INTP-A/INTJ]. I met the Krishna-consciousness 2,5 months ago, then my life became extremely peaceful, balanced, and calm. Got no any stress, worry in my nowdays, or shock, or fear or anything like these, so I can't really understand this violent dream. I was very familiar in occult, and worked with demons, dark spirits before for long-long years, but I wanted to close that part of my life very fast, and for final.
To be honest, within a year I experienced 3 kind of dreams where I got raped by malevolent beings, but never more in my life. I'm a victim of several rape attempts anyway (in real life), but I feel no shock or fear, got no serious effect on me after those attempt's so... I'm absolutely blind now. I can't find the reason behind these.
Please, feel free to share with me your opinions, ideas and everything what just come into your mind about the dream, it's reason or anything.