You see, my real problem is that I've always wanted to be somebody. Like, leave a mark. I want people to remember me when I die. I want people to know my name, to see my name in a headline. It sounds arrogant but that's what I really want. I'm an artist. And artists need people to recognise their work.And all this problems that has happened and the ones that are happening make me feel like I'm never gonna make that dream come true. And I feel like I don't control my life and it makes me want to die.