In times before the secrets were hidden for very good reasons, as you risked your life to speak of such.
That is why there are brotherhoods protecting this.
When you ask for knowledge in the right way nothing can stop you from attaining it.
But the consciousness of man is opening again, and many are looking as you do.
When you raise your vibrations those that are alike will show you the way.
I will think about this and send you a pm. Be patient.