Hello, my name is Hugo and I feel retard for only typing this up.
I feel retard because I'm willing to do anything even kill to achieve what I want!!!!
I want my ex, no matter what.
I'm sorry if I sound selfish, but I'm like dying, so if I could only have her only one more time in my
insignificant life I'd be grateful to the world and god which I don't even believe in, I'm willing to believe in him if it costs that.
I've lost my ex for retarded reasons, very retarded.
I met her a long time ago, and we were "friends" until I turned 16 and she turned 14...
This happened in about July 2010 when my parents we're fighting to have me like I was some piece of s***, a toy.
So my mom won.
I left my country (Portugal) to go to the UK, in July 2010.
After my first high school year there, I've been talking a lot more with my friend (which came to be my ex now), and in August 2011 I came back for holidays.
Just "holidays" until she became my girlfriend in those 2 weeks.
Probably you'll think I'm a dumbass, but I don't really care.
I even... well. Did things reccomended over 18. Stuff. Erm.
Okay, I think you get it, but it meant a lot to me, a very lot...
Eventually I had to return to the UK, but I asked my dad to fight over the judge to bring me back to Portugal so I could be with my girlfriend again.
Unfortunatelly governs are lazy asses and they did nothing since September 2011 to August 2012!
In mean time me and my girlfriend had a lot of problems and she became "confused" or whatever excuses women give, so she broke up with me thinking I could never come back and "moved on".
We broke up in mid March, between the 10th and the 20th of March.
Until then, I somehow managed to let my mom (after so many tries) come back last August the 4th! However it was a pain to find anyone with my ex's new phone number...
But it was too late. She has a boyfriend, 5 YEARS OLDER, Hulk muscles, a job, tons of money and his zodiac sign is Leo. And he talks too much.
I also recall he has not much of a brain.
(I texted her a few days ago a quote from a game character from Portal 2, GLaDOS' speech to Chell in the alternative ending. Seems he read it and retardedly though it was for my ex... see, many people in this country are too damn stupid to care to learn another language! Then she texted me he was mad at her.)
I have only a brain and I'm 2 years older than her and I'm just a shy small Capricorn...
And she kind of feels she has a perfect life.
I look like a selfish idiotic retard wanting her back when she says she has a perfect life, just because I still love her and had no girlfriends before (I'm kind of picky, don't like to collect ex's, neither confidence enough to meet new people)...
But I can't seriously live any longer neither think of anything, do anything without her entering on my mind!!!
I tried to suicide myself a few days ago but then it came to mind "What if her boyfriend leaves her blablabla" and I just couldn't.
What's does the point of this idiot speech about time travel?
I want to go back to December 2009.
I think it's a good date to go back if I can be myself and rechoose many things...
Also I know from movies that I could end up in a manicomium if I ever spoke to anyone about being able to travel back in time, and trying to tell the people I know now but not before that date to be my friends or something else, I would be seen as a freak or though to have a mental disease.
I would try to make myself not going to the UK, but somehow meet my friend (that would be my girlfriend, and is my ex in this timeline).
I even asked her to make some sort of ritual (she believes in demons and that kind of stuff... well who knows if it could worl) and she told me a friend of hers that knows about dark magic told her it's possible to travel back while "sleeping", guided my someones voice with 2 candles nearby.
She also said he said I had 15% chances for it to to work, but I didn't told her the second reason I wanna go back.
I'm so desperate I'm willing to believe that as having a futuristic machine than travels faster-than-light is not really possible yet, Wikipedia said.
I came here because this forum was one of my search results, and I hope I can find an answer : If time travel is possible in the days of today, how could I do that easly?
I even beg for an answer even if it's negative... but please...
Thanks...
I feel retard because I'm willing to do anything even kill to achieve what I want!!!!
I want my ex, no matter what.
I'm sorry if I sound selfish, but I'm like dying, so if I could only have her only one more time in my
insignificant life I'd be grateful to the world and god which I don't even believe in, I'm willing to believe in him if it costs that.
I've lost my ex for retarded reasons, very retarded.
I met her a long time ago, and we were "friends" until I turned 16 and she turned 14...
This happened in about July 2010 when my parents we're fighting to have me like I was some piece of s***, a toy.
So my mom won.
I left my country (Portugal) to go to the UK, in July 2010.
After my first high school year there, I've been talking a lot more with my friend (which came to be my ex now), and in August 2011 I came back for holidays.
Just "holidays" until she became my girlfriend in those 2 weeks.
Probably you'll think I'm a dumbass, but I don't really care.
I even... well. Did things reccomended over 18. Stuff. Erm.
Okay, I think you get it, but it meant a lot to me, a very lot...
Eventually I had to return to the UK, but I asked my dad to fight over the judge to bring me back to Portugal so I could be with my girlfriend again.
Unfortunatelly governs are lazy asses and they did nothing since September 2011 to August 2012!
In mean time me and my girlfriend had a lot of problems and she became "confused" or whatever excuses women give, so she broke up with me thinking I could never come back and "moved on".
We broke up in mid March, between the 10th and the 20th of March.
Until then, I somehow managed to let my mom (after so many tries) come back last August the 4th! However it was a pain to find anyone with my ex's new phone number...
But it was too late. She has a boyfriend, 5 YEARS OLDER, Hulk muscles, a job, tons of money and his zodiac sign is Leo. And he talks too much.
I also recall he has not much of a brain.
(I texted her a few days ago a quote from a game character from Portal 2, GLaDOS' speech to Chell in the alternative ending. Seems he read it and retardedly though it was for my ex... see, many people in this country are too damn stupid to care to learn another language! Then she texted me he was mad at her.)
I have only a brain and I'm 2 years older than her and I'm just a shy small Capricorn...
And she kind of feels she has a perfect life.
I look like a selfish idiotic retard wanting her back when she says she has a perfect life, just because I still love her and had no girlfriends before (I'm kind of picky, don't like to collect ex's, neither confidence enough to meet new people)...
But I can't seriously live any longer neither think of anything, do anything without her entering on my mind!!!
I tried to suicide myself a few days ago but then it came to mind "What if her boyfriend leaves her blablabla" and I just couldn't.
What's does the point of this idiot speech about time travel?
I want to go back to December 2009.
I think it's a good date to go back if I can be myself and rechoose many things...
Also I know from movies that I could end up in a manicomium if I ever spoke to anyone about being able to travel back in time, and trying to tell the people I know now but not before that date to be my friends or something else, I would be seen as a freak or though to have a mental disease.
I would try to make myself not going to the UK, but somehow meet my friend (that would be my girlfriend, and is my ex in this timeline).
I even asked her to make some sort of ritual (she believes in demons and that kind of stuff... well who knows if it could worl) and she told me a friend of hers that knows about dark magic told her it's possible to travel back while "sleeping", guided my someones voice with 2 candles nearby.
She also said he said I had 15% chances for it to to work, but I didn't told her the second reason I wanna go back.
I'm so desperate I'm willing to believe that as having a futuristic machine than travels faster-than-light is not really possible yet, Wikipedia said.
I came here because this forum was one of my search results, and I hope I can find an answer : If time travel is possible in the days of today, how could I do that easly?
I even beg for an answer even if it's negative... but please...
Thanks...