Hello everyone!
So, based on my latest posts, you can see clearly that I always was interested in Navajo and other Indian culture, mythology and so on since my childhood, even when I live in Europe, so far from them and far from everything what connecting to them. There is a high respect in me towards them, and I'm a deeply spiritual person who is familiar in and or practiceing magick. This state (being illuminated by them) is something what always coming back, again and again and it becomes stronger than before, always.
I spent a lot of times with doing researches, reading documents, reports, stories and tried to find out more about them now and since long years as well. They are just impressed me and I don't know why. I do not really fear from them, I'm curious and for an unknown reason, there is a feeling like: "I wish to understand them" - which seemingly a suicidal thought. Like... talking to them, seeing them, contacting them.
I live far from their lands, but how the times just passed, I noticed that I thinking so much on them. Almost every hour or 20-30 minutes, and I don't get the reason, at all and because of this, I'm usually talk about them every day, even when I know it can be dangerous; I believe that they are far from me, so it shouldn't be a problem - this is the way how I see the things now.
BUT... now I had an urge to... before or after I 'must' travel places where they live. Not only because I planned it "before them", for these places just charmed me, but because of them and now, mostly because of them. And it really freaks me out. I can't forgot, and it becomes worst... it had a reason why I posted about the months ago; because the same thing happened to me then what happens and kept happening me now. It just won't let me go and forget.
I can remember when I asked that is that possible that, if you thinking a lot about them, you can get their attention even when you are far from them? And at this point I don't know what should I think.
What if a person like this or me, would travel a place where they live? A person who kept them in mind outside her control. I really wanted to ask these from a Navajo person, but then I realized that it could harm him or her, so I skipped this immediately, for me doing it (as I just said) shouldn't be a problem.
I honestly don't know, what should I do or how could I 'escape' from these thoughts and effect. I'm so confused now, and I also like to find out, what is this, at all and why is this happens?
What could I say for first... I feel myself very embarrassingly, for as you can say, almost all of my posts connected Skinwalkers or Wendigos, but believe me, it has a reason, a serious reason and I can't stand the situation I'm in, still... for I don't understand at all. I try to figure out but it is hard to find any explanation or person who is handle this as a serious topic / situation. Because it is and you guys, you proved that you are someone who a person can trust, for they try their best to answer and help.
So, based on my latest posts, you can see clearly that I always was interested in Navajo and other Indian culture, mythology and so on since my childhood, even when I live in Europe, so far from them and far from everything what connecting to them. There is a high respect in me towards them, and I'm a deeply spiritual person who is familiar in and or practiceing magick. This state (being illuminated by them) is something what always coming back, again and again and it becomes stronger than before, always.
I spent a lot of times with doing researches, reading documents, reports, stories and tried to find out more about them now and since long years as well. They are just impressed me and I don't know why. I do not really fear from them, I'm curious and for an unknown reason, there is a feeling like: "I wish to understand them" - which seemingly a suicidal thought. Like... talking to them, seeing them, contacting them.
I live far from their lands, but how the times just passed, I noticed that I thinking so much on them. Almost every hour or 20-30 minutes, and I don't get the reason, at all and because of this, I'm usually talk about them every day, even when I know it can be dangerous; I believe that they are far from me, so it shouldn't be a problem - this is the way how I see the things now.
BUT... now I had an urge to... before or after I 'must' travel places where they live. Not only because I planned it "before them", for these places just charmed me, but because of them and now, mostly because of them. And it really freaks me out. I can't forgot, and it becomes worst... it had a reason why I posted about the months ago; because the same thing happened to me then what happens and kept happening me now. It just won't let me go and forget.
I can remember when I asked that is that possible that, if you thinking a lot about them, you can get their attention even when you are far from them? And at this point I don't know what should I think.
What if a person like this or me, would travel a place where they live? A person who kept them in mind outside her control. I really wanted to ask these from a Navajo person, but then I realized that it could harm him or her, so I skipped this immediately, for me doing it (as I just said) shouldn't be a problem.
I honestly don't know, what should I do or how could I 'escape' from these thoughts and effect. I'm so confused now, and I also like to find out, what is this, at all and why is this happens?