The problem is with logic and reason. We are taught to believe that logic and reason are acceptable ways to solve a problem. But how many times have you noticed that what you are told and what you see with your own eyes are two different things.
While I am inclined to be an outside the box kind of thinker, the element of logic is ever present. It is simply how I think. If what I am told is antithetical to logic, I don't necessarily trust it.
All logic and reason does in my case is create a circumstance that makes it seem like I am the only one that could have possibly saved me. But I didn't do it. It looks like a setup to me. The time travel angle is just an easy out explanation.
How do you know it wasn't you traveling time, ...or someone else? When dealing with time travel and the unknown of the future, the possibilities are vast. It could be any number of future technologies at work. People could be digging through the NSA database in a museum 6000 years from now, picking people out, astral traveling like they were in the room with us, and then visiting like a vacation. Maybe they are coming from another worldline doing a gradual repair job on this one from the future. You get a free visit to the past on this one, but you have to do something to make it better. Who knows. It could be anything.
I don't buy it. I want the truth. And it's starting to look like the truth is stranger than the circumstantial evidence.
I can certainly identify with valuing truth. What is maddening for the disorientation is not having a truthful premise in which to base decisions.
Logic is truth. But I do understand the value of definitive proof (like traveling time)verses circumstantial suggestive or conclusive evidence.
If a group of people are standing on the other side of the road from you and a bus with dark tinted windows pulls up to them, blocking your view of them, then drives off, and there are no people left standing, and you did not see anyone leave the spot where they were standing, you can safely conclude they all got onto the bus. You never actually saw them board the bus, and no one has to explain it to you. You simply see reality through logic.
So, what if the bus pulls around to you, having not left your sight or doing anything unusual, the door opens and you step onto an empty bus? Now what is reality through logic? You never actually saw the people board. This fact never came into question until you saw it empty. Until then, it was an obvious reality. Now it is conclusive evidence of something else.
You step off of the bus and walk across the street to where the people were standing as to examine it. You find absolutely nothing unusual about that particular spot. It is simply asphalt gravel grass and dirt within a 100 ft radius. You saw absolutely nothing unusual about anything until you got on that bus.
But you KNOW there is something about that bus that does not fit reality. The anomaly, whatever defies logic and normalcy, is about the bus. The logical conclusion of people obviously boarding has just become a magic bus.
(Can you imagine explaining that to The Who?)
Here is an example of a setup circumstance. You come home one day and find your girlfriend dead on the floor with a knife through her heart. You rush over not willing to believe she is really dead. You pull the knife out of her chest. Just then the cops arrive and see you over the dead body with the murder weapon in your hand. A victim of circumstance. So the circumstances point toward what seems like only one solution. You know you didn't do it. But everyone else will believe you did. All I'm saying is be more cautious on circumstantial evidence you are accepting as fact. By doing so, you are actually no longer looking for the real answers.
It's about a girl alright.
I'm trying to figure out what happened and look out for a friend, put her in a safe place, ideally home with family like nothing happened.
Born in 1998 is somehow encrypted onto her womb before it was ever thought of. And I know I didn't put it there unless her and I end up pregnant with time travel in the future, which would explain a few things. The thing is, 'Alice' is presumed dead under anomalous circumstance and the context of 30 years of interaction with time travelers and others playing stupid crazy games, and gathering of data and evidence.
Not knowing if she is O.K., in trouble or dead frustrates me, even more so is how she likely knew it then. (hee-hee)
Metaphorically speaking, she is the magic bus.