Hello,i know thers been numerous threads about this subject but i didnt feel as they deliverd what am feeling about it,(sry for my bad english,am not from english speaking country),So i am fully aware being,am aware of evrithing that sourands me,i feel as am aware of my mind myself,and that my body is yust a vesselfor my mind aka me,other thing is that i have feeling like all world is looking true my eyes its quite annoying,it may be known as some known effect but am not aknowledge for sure about it,and sure i can die and be gone from this world,by die i mean i can jump from very tall building and my body will be disabled and crushed,but i my mind will not die and it will not stop to exist,and am not saying that as i have done it,i yust know,same as someone knows when he loves somebody,he doesnt have poof but he simply knows it,and i feel as this is my first life,sometimes i cant wait to be gone from this world ca si wona know whats beyond it,i feel its not yet my time to go am 25 years old so i may comit suicide or die from natural or not natural in next ten years,sure u all can call me crazy and maybi to u i am crazy but thats how ei feel its same as u breath air but ur not aware it all the time but am aware of my mind,but its not as great as some may think,its not easy to be aware all the time i feel it as curse to know that u can freely commit suicide whenever u wont and keep existing,when am thinking about other people on this planet i dont categorize them as rich,poor,evil,or good,i see them as humans,and i do not like this era am living in,i think humans are to selfish and they act as puppets like in movies.Now if u think why we who feel like this why dont we yust suicide now and change to other life,its not that simple,do u ever think why is there pain,why do we humans feel pain,its created to stop all from mass suicide,oufcourse for some less mindful pain is not issue,thers many things i would like to write as how ei feel but its yust imposible to interpert those feelings into words,so i know am "immortal",my body can vanish,but i will continu to exist,reason why am writing this thread is not ca si wona get analized by numbers people or people saying i talk gibberish,its to find other humans whu have similar feelings as i and to share knowledge about it,and why do i "hate" this era is cas its ruled by money,money controls evrything,people starve and kill for money,i simply hate it,and i hate that humans like me which when would have inaf resources would change the world not to be so money concentrated and dependent,we get most worst lives in which we cant do nothing,it yust backfires cas there are some humans which have "roles" like actors to stop us from changing something,and belive me i have encounterd people like that,they act as puppets,they act as u cant imagine doing,they act only as u see in movies,only diffrence is that in movie u know why are they doing what they are doing and whu gaved them that roles,while in realitiy u can yust watch them and pity them,now u whu read this be free to call me crazy and say other bad things,but this is truth,i wish i am blind from start so i dont see this unyustice world but i see and dont tell me u can do something about it,cas i cant i tried,so i hope i will have moreyustice in next life or werever it be.