Mudpuppy
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Don't feel alone. There is alot to contemplate. Sometimes the mind can only take new information that stretches it in small increments. I was the same way when I first read Fred Allan Wolfe's book, Parallel Universes back in 1993. I had to read and re-read the book a half a dozen times. My mind had never been stretched outside it's stagnated westernized shoebox mentality. Like trying to feed a baby a steak. I took in as much as I could and kept putting the book down after every chapter to contemplate what I had read. Lots of times I fell asleep. I didn't think there was any correlation with that until I read much later on somewhere that that is the minds way of digesting information. When we read things we resonate to but are beyond our current comprehension, the mind plays a little trick on us. It teaches us while we sleep. We have dreams of being back in school, of being in libraries, of old teachers we used to know.....we assimilate the information through pictures and symbols in our subconscious. Then we find later on when we reread something that all of the sudden we start to catch on or it starts to make sense. If the desire to learn, understand and grow in a certain direction is there, the mind will compensate. "Ask and ye shall receive".That...really, really, changes the way I look at things, mate. All I can say is wow. I'm going to have to re-read this later on and hope I get even more from it than I did this first time through.
Just handle what you can for now. When you are in a relaxed mode somewhere contemplating things in silence, you will be amazed at what the mind will bring back up for you to assimilate. It's never about being smarter than the next guy. It's all about "beating your own best time"....just being the best that you can be at your own pace. There's only one starting gate and one finish line. We all eventually "arrive".