conscious9
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I'd love to go back to the early 2000's before my mom's property in Europe was sold by my dad, who was paying for it and who she gave full permission to sell. He gave her the chance to move back there instead of staying in the U.S. She became extremely and increasingly deranged and abusive since then, blaming him for all her problems, and coming up with all sorts of excuses and lies, living in the past, viciously yelling, and insulting those who don't agree with her. Total Narcissistic Personality Disorder. The worst possible emotional, psychological, and verbal abuse that can be inflicted on another human being. Heck, she was abusive even before that.
This has left me with major PTSD and OCD and pretty much still living at home as an adult child. Granted, I do have a wonderful support network online, and a business opportunity which could really take off. But part of me still believes nothing will change, and at this point, I find it impossible to do anything about my life without money. I know exactly how to heal my health issues, I have friends and a girlfriend online, I have a career I want to pursue, but as long as I am here living in this house and without money, I am left with major mental blocks. I was bullied severely in school, as well, which also fuels my PTSD and nightmares. I never had close friends in person outside a few sympathetic acquaintances. I still struggle with suicidal feelings every day. Heck, if I could simply take back these past 4 years, it would be a lifesaver. I should have moved out as soon as I met my best friend online in late 2012.
I do believe the Akashic Records and astral projection are real, but everyone either charges big money for such healing/assistance, or expects you to learn it by yourself, which isn't practical or even safe for me in my current circumstances. I would give anything for free assistance, or rather, to pay that person back at a later date. I have wonderful opportunities in my life, but right now, I still feel rather directionless and it is a struggle for me, as I also have physical health issues and brain fog from lifelong Lyme disease, coupled with everything else. And I already know where and how I can heal this, as I said already, it's just a money issue for me at this point.
I feel like astral help is the help we should all be asking for. I seriously have been wanting answers from the other side for years now. I just need to know exactly what steps to take to ensure the best possible future for myself from this point forward. I know EXACTLY what I want in my life, and have known for years. The hard part is manifesting and achieving that. And believe me, I have already tried radionics and orgonite and all that. It's not enough for me. I have major mental blocks and life is just moving too slow.
I need help, dammit. We all do. Is there anyone on this forum who is willing to offer it? I am willing to do anything I can to change. And believe me, I would pay $1,000 upwards at a later date if I just had someone knowledgeable willing to see into my situation and guide me. You can call it an investment, a loan, whatever. Where are all the real psychics hiding when you need them? If someone actually gave me a chance, and truly placed their effort into helping me, then you would see and KNOW that I am true to my word.
No matter where life takes me, I will never forgot those who are struggling. Peace and love to you all. May the Age of Aquarius dawn upon us soon.
This has left me with major PTSD and OCD and pretty much still living at home as an adult child. Granted, I do have a wonderful support network online, and a business opportunity which could really take off. But part of me still believes nothing will change, and at this point, I find it impossible to do anything about my life without money. I know exactly how to heal my health issues, I have friends and a girlfriend online, I have a career I want to pursue, but as long as I am here living in this house and without money, I am left with major mental blocks. I was bullied severely in school, as well, which also fuels my PTSD and nightmares. I never had close friends in person outside a few sympathetic acquaintances. I still struggle with suicidal feelings every day. Heck, if I could simply take back these past 4 years, it would be a lifesaver. I should have moved out as soon as I met my best friend online in late 2012.
I do believe the Akashic Records and astral projection are real, but everyone either charges big money for such healing/assistance, or expects you to learn it by yourself, which isn't practical or even safe for me in my current circumstances. I would give anything for free assistance, or rather, to pay that person back at a later date. I have wonderful opportunities in my life, but right now, I still feel rather directionless and it is a struggle for me, as I also have physical health issues and brain fog from lifelong Lyme disease, coupled with everything else. And I already know where and how I can heal this, as I said already, it's just a money issue for me at this point.
I feel like astral help is the help we should all be asking for. I seriously have been wanting answers from the other side for years now. I just need to know exactly what steps to take to ensure the best possible future for myself from this point forward. I know EXACTLY what I want in my life, and have known for years. The hard part is manifesting and achieving that. And believe me, I have already tried radionics and orgonite and all that. It's not enough for me. I have major mental blocks and life is just moving too slow.
I need help, dammit. We all do. Is there anyone on this forum who is willing to offer it? I am willing to do anything I can to change. And believe me, I would pay $1,000 upwards at a later date if I just had someone knowledgeable willing to see into my situation and guide me. You can call it an investment, a loan, whatever. Where are all the real psychics hiding when you need them? If someone actually gave me a chance, and truly placed their effort into helping me, then you would see and KNOW that I am true to my word.
No matter where life takes me, I will never forgot those who are struggling. Peace and love to you all. May the Age of Aquarius dawn upon us soon.
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