I have to vent. I have no babysitter. Have to bring the kids to radiation today because there's no school. They'll have to sit alone in the waiting room. My family disappeared. I've been going through this shit alone. I'm serious -- Google radiation burns if you want to know what I'm going through... but the funny thing is, family members will always say "I'm there for you" but then when you ask for help, a thousand excuses pop up. It's amazing how much you learn about people during these times. At least I can say I relied on NOBODY.