Macho Man,
I got the Lawrence reference. I don't so much blame her for the way she was. It wasn't her fault. She did some rather cruel and evil things, but I forgive her and take responsibility for putting up with it, for putting myself in that position. I was an asshole too.
I tried looking her up a couple of years ago, just to see how she was doing. I found several listings, none current, all with the same SS# and first and last name, but with different middle names. Her oldest was living somewhere else, and I had to wonder what kind of trouble she may have got herself into.
Whatever hell she put me through, I can certainly appreciate what she taught me about what women are capable of. I allowed her to screw up a few years of my life. She took advantage of me, but at least I had a choice for those few years.
What she didn't do is stalk me for 27 years to play some sick twisted psy-ops dead carrot antagonistic insane game with me as if my life and struggles were a form of entertainment.