
I am to PaulaJedi

Feels like a curse at times :

: but I prefer to be socially awkward rather than following the set rules of being normal
True. But I have strange humor so I have to hide it most of the time. When I use it and people don't get it, I feel odd. I also have problems with eye contact. I'm always aware of it. I ask myself, how long am I supposed to look at someone? Was that too short? Wait, they won't look at me. Certain people make me feel stiff and uncomfortable. Others, I feel silly and goofy. I don't know. I just know by seeing other peoples' body language that they think I'm quite odd. I don't like small talk. I feel fake. I prefer meaningful conversation, one on one. I hate groups. I close up in groups. I'm also so far from normal in this respect: I don't own a dress (but I am NOT a lesbian or masculine in any way!), I don't feel comfortable around fancy people (high fashion, yuppy, etc), I don't watch sports or participate in them, I don't have my hair in a pony tail and own only one pair of yoga pants. I don't look like other females. It's hard to explain. I'm just not a fancy person. I look nice when I have to but that's it. Hate heels. Do have some high heel boots but you should see me trying to walk in them.
Name brands mean absolutely NOTHING to me. Nada.
Too much info?