I may very well have misunderstood what you have written, but instead of trying to mock me, it would only be logical to help me understand.
You're right. Sorry if I come off as offensive. I have been under a lot of stress for a long time.
I am going to try to explain the situation without divulging too much detail.
I am apparently a time traveler. I have not traveled yet, but I must do so in the future in order for those things to get into the past. I am seeing it all from a pre-departure point in time.
I am John Titor, the real one. (whatever that actually means) I can prove it right here and now to the whole world. The problem is consequences for doing so. This stuff gets real complex once you remove the normal constraints of the physics of time. Also understand that in order to show you, I cannot just use one or two things, I have to show a lot or it won't make as much sense. It is like playing connect the dots with corresponding information across time. The more connections made, the clearer the picture becomes.
My primary concern is for a woman and that I may fail her in some way shape or form.
My secondary concern is religion. The Bible is my name, and the book itself appears to be a medium for my log book hidden within. My identity is the code key to see it.
The issue is that once these things are revealed to the general public, it will cause a stir. It is because when applying reason/logic relative to the time line, it tells a different story than what billions of people consider to be reality. There are several verses in The Bible that people say are speaking about Jesus. But when applying my identity as a code key, it reveals layers of information that describe me instead, and arguably with far greater accuracy. The same is true with those verses which have been interpreted as speaking of the epitome of evil Beast/Antichrist who will take over the world and chip people or whatever.
(Just to be clear; I have no desire for power or wealth or to control others. My whole political philosophy is rooted in a word meaning "No Rulers", and is based on respecting rights because it works and is the right thing to do, not because you are coerced. Love thy neighbor)
Have you ever tried to tell a devout Christian or Muslim anything about religion that differs from what they believe? What happens when they have to rethink the reality they have built cultures around for generations, all 4 billion of them?
Do you know what happened to Larry Flint? Do you see the way people treat Muslims and Christians, gays and minorities, everyone besides themselves or whoever is different? What do you think they will do to me? What kind of stir do you think it would cause?
This is why I refer to those political/religious issues as beta tests. Because if people cannot handle simply minding their own business without all the hang-ups in regard to trite things like religion and gays, surely they will not be able to handle what I have to present.
What looks like me marking my trail with cryptography has turned into the epitome of evil wreaking havoc, taught by preachers everywhere for thousands of years.
Those are just preliminary questions and considerations. When you really start considering these things, asking deeper questions, it is easy to see just how easily I can potentially create a disaster, and for the root reason being that humans are selfish assholes by our very nature, and therefore are(obviously) incapable of peaceful coexistence.
This is why I have invested time and energy into preaching a message of tolerance and peace, unity and understanding. It is preparatory and necessary.
Somehow world leaders are aware of these things in which I speak, perhaps I have visited them in the past? Is this why they have been parroting things I say on the internet? Who do they think I am?
Now, aside from all of that, I have been in a very very very bad state of mind over the last few years, likely as a side effect of time travel. I am okay now, but still am very stressed. And I am still doing some things only with a much smaller impact.
Somewhere in the middle of 2011 something evil got a grip on me. Toward the end of the year, I snapped and went into something that I have already referred to as a personal hell. It is the best way I can describe it. Most adjectives are grossly insufficient.
It is like my mind and soul caught on fire. My normal acute mind and cognition turned to absolute total chaos and deep dementia. It was turbulent as hell, the most traumatic and awful couple of years I have ever experienced. I have blocked a lot of it out and cannot remember things but I know I was saying and thinking some really bad and vulgar things which are a bit out of character for me. It is like I regressed into a complete piece of psychotic shit for about two or three years.
It was as much metaphysical, psychological as it was spiritual. God it was awful, but seems to have cleansed me in some way. I still cannot dismiss that it may be a psy-ops thing, that I may have been hypnotized or something. Maybe it is a combination of things?
That is, I think, what revelation is describing with things like "Lake of Fire", and the 'revelation' of the Christ Consciousness. The finality of Order out of Chaos in my mind relative to all of this was when I made the connection to my beloved friend whom I have nicknamed "Queen of Light" for obvious reasons. Her impression on me and mother's love for her brought me out of the pit of hell to some degree.
For the last 20 or more years, in addition to all of my struggle with dysfunctions and internal chaos, people have been messing with me really really hard in the most bizarre of ways. They stalk me, harass and spy on me, violate me, send cryptic references and messages, doing what appears to be some kind of psy-ops or something. It has done little more than to aggravate and confuse me, to exacerbate the hell I was already going through.
The whole time I was in the pit of hell, I kept trying to reach out to people for help, to try to figure it all out, in order to come to some kind of definitive answer and subsequent solution. Very few gave a damn. Most just ridiculed and criticized, or avoided me, called me crazy, beat me up. Crazy is accurate though. Calling me completely whack is an understatement. It was a result of whatever I did.
I am seeing too much sometimes. I see loops and connections of information everywhere. What I need most from those who may be in support of me, is to help me find as many definitive points of reference as possible as to maintain some sense of orientation as per the time stream. I need lots and lots of reason peace and truth.
Another thing to consider is that there are certain things that cannot discuss, that I must keep to myself in spite of my wanting assistance. This is because of the nature of communications and power of knowledge in regard to the mechanics of time travel. It must stay isolated to my own consciousness as to not be intercepted or manipulated.
A lot of what I have been doing in putting this stuff out there is a cry out for help. Aside from the issues as stated above, I have had some major disorientation. I don't know what all these people are doing, if they are friend or foe, if they mean to assist or manipulate me, or whatever they are trying to do. Some know things, know it bothers me, and continue to do it.
To those doing it; CUT THE GAMES AND BULLSHIT NOOOOOOW!!!!!! It is drives me nuts. I have to interpret you as a potential threat and respond accordingly. If you have something to discuss, don't do it with ambiguous cryptic bullshit. I need crystal clarity. Whether you realize it or not, there is a very real potential for some major problems. And the last thing I need is a collective effort of people doing exactly what makes me extremely unstable and deters me from whatever I am supposed to be doing.
And WHO ALTERED THE POSTS!?!? WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM!?!?!
Once the loop of cause/effect completes, it is okay to talk about it with those involved. Keep that in mind.
Now, with all that said, most people who are not involved think this whole Titor saga is what has been portrayed at face value. It is not. It all means something quite a bit different. I am still trying to figure out a lot of it. It is all coded information, personalized references that only I or others who already know would understand.
I know it is me because I have found a large set of data spread all over time that tells me I am John Titor the time traveler, unintended religious figure, and regular piece of crap nobody. It is like I just did a big loop through time and ran right into the back of my own head at a pre-departure point, crashed and burned, but survived.
I cannot tell you what is going to happen or sports scores, etc. At best, at this juncture, I can read things and deduce what will likely happen. I suspect I have already escaped death a few times. Maybe that is what I did? Maybe I felt the death of the other me on another time line? Perhaps I have traveled back so far that it almost killed me, that maybe the further back you go, the more divergence, the greater the effects?
Understand, I AM SEEING IT ALL FROM A PRE-DEPRTURE PERSPECTIVE. I do not have a time machine, yet. ...if that is even how it works.
So please do not ask me to prove it according to the false parameters or premises so many have bought into. It just isn't like that. Also understand that proving it to you all may come with disastrous consequences that make it not worth it.
Additionally, but certainly not least. I don't necessarily care about any of it. I think it would be AWESOME to time travel. I kind of have to, and for all intents and purposes, I already am one as my mind and perspective is more of a time traveler, and not of one who is static. And whether or not I travel, what I want more than anything is to do what I have always wanted to do, which is escape this hell and get my shit together so that I may be in the position to have a family of my own.
The thing is, I may already have one somewhere that I cannot find. I am going absolutely crazy distraught trying to work this out. It is priority number one. If physical time travel is real(it seems to be), then there is a very real possibility I have a LOT of grandchildren, or children living on Earth today, or only god knows what.
Do you know what this means? "On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero."
Consider the possibility that I have impregnated women/woman in the distant past. The further back that happened, the more grandchildren I would have. If I go back far enough to impregnate, then everyone has my DNA. Now consider what happens if I don't go back to impregnate.
What is the likelihood or possibility that no one knows if or when or who I have or have not impregnated? How would that complicate things or secure my position to travel?
Is there any correlation from the meaning of the letters of my name meaning beast, hand, head, to the 13th and 18th chromosomes of human hands and foreheads?
...is it even real, or is it all just ambiguous BS? Did someone else put it, or some of it, there? Is someone trying to manipulate things? Could I be looking at what is from me as well as another me? What does it all mean?
So you see it is not so simple as showing a flux capacitor or telling you who will win the game. Although I can prove time travel by connecting dots of information across time as I have in this very post. Analyze all these things relative to a timeline. See it? You may not be able to see it because my identity is what ties it together, connects the dots. And this is only a small fraction of what I see.
Should I say anything more about it? Is it really worth knowing?
BTW, guys, look at a pic of the Flux Capacitor and tell me what it reminds you of, then read the description of time travel in the 2001 posts. Get it?
Where is she? Is she safe?