caribouuu
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i had a somewhat abusive childhood, my parents are now different people and our relationship has drastically improved but it was tough for 15-18 years. I lived in constant fear (not from being grounded), like every decision I made was made with fear. I declined a lot of opportunities for me out of fear. I wish that I didn't. Slowly my parents changed, I wish that I could have maybe confronted them earlier and kick started their change sooner.
I kind of just wish I didn't live in that much fear, that I took some of the opportunities that were presented to me (it would have set me up on better life path than I am now). I have a lot of regrets, mainly from letting the abuse I faced take over me as much as it did. I want to go back and either tell my younger self and coach my younger self through the darker days, or relive those days in a way that would have made it more bearable. I know it is just wishful thinking and the idea of time travel is messy beyond belief, but this is a wishful fantasy that i do have.