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  • Found pieces of pork rind lying in the shower, but you need to mix it with lye to make soap.
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    PaulaJedi
    PaulaJedi
    Um. Dare I ask why they are there?
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    My parents left them outside for birds to eat, on top of an up side down pot. Then the pork rinds got stuck under the pot when taking it in for cleaning. So there was pieces of fat on the floor when I took a shower.
    PaulaJedi
    PaulaJedi
    @Beholder Ok, that's a relief. I was afraid you were eating them while taking a shower. Soap wouldn't have tasted very good.
    I have successfully erased a trauma memory through activation and sensory over-exposure of an 18 mm wide memory cluster in my left frontal lobe. First I located the region by sensing which region emitted more electromagnetism while recalling the event. Then I traversed the surrounding neurons to map the cells and nerve connections to see which signals activate them. Then I bombarded the memory cells with signals of maximum intensity, which made the entire body shake from intense flashbacks mixed with blinding light. After repeating the process, the memory images faded into a pale white blob. Thinking about the train now only shows a blob of white light, so the memory is now physically erased instead of supressed. The stress symptoms are not tied to memory recall, but I might be able to travel by train again using this memory erasure method.
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    It's interesting that it turned into a White blob, as visualizing the White Ray or color is sometimes used to dissolve subconsciously recorded tramas, I believe.
    yarn-spider-halloween-craft-photo-350x255-aformaro-14_rdax_65.jpg

    My dad got ensnared in mom's yarn and needed help to get out of it. A yarn spider would then be able to capture humans.
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    Farang
    Farang
    I'm sorry

    i killed a spider

    i trapped him under a cup and meant to slip some paper under, take it outside and shake him off, free him.

    but i forgot, got distracted.

    and when i saw the cup days later, and realized what i had done, i left it there for a month.

    i didn't want to see his balled, warped little carcass, the consequence of my distraction, my laziness.

    i don't kill bugs it makes me feel guilty
    😪
    Beholder
    Beholder
    Mephala embrace thee.
    Farang
    Farang
    The famous saying
    "when one door closes, another door opens"
    is actually a famous quote by Alexander Graham Bell. The quote ends with
    "but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones which open for us."
    My friend will be in the asylum for a week after chasing an invisible cat that woke him up.
    Wind7
    Wind7
    I hope he recovers or at least, receives the correct treatments he needs.
    The mind is a tricky thing.
    Farang
    Farang
    I hope your friend receive good care & treatment.
    How are things with you? 🙂
    Beholder
    Beholder
    He has recovered now, but should avoid beer while taking the medication. Not sure how my trauma is when the medicine supress symptoms.
    Did you contact your doctor about all these side effects?
    Beholder
    Beholder
    EMDR with exposure worked as long as I could go back to being calm, but now I am constantly in panic without medicine.

    Had a near death experience with allergies on a night train. A very old train that had not been cleaned for months and had no ventilation at all. The allergy medicine did not help and the payment system for buying more water was offline. The only toiled that was not closed for repairs was a tiny toilet intended for staff. The floor was covered in pee and you had to climb the walls to close the door behind you. Woke up with a fever, swollen face and tunnel vision (hypoxemia causing blue dots in my retinas) from the dust, then walked out of the room in the middle of the night. Could not take the risk of dying in there, so I stood sleep deprived in the hallway, just waiting for the sun to rise and the nightmare ride to be over.
    Farang
    Farang
    That sounds very traumatic; I'm sorry the hear about this. It was clearly a horrific experience.

    Prior to these events, how did you feel?

    Were you otherwise fit & well?

    I'm sure- & speaking also from painful experiences, you need to discover ways to relieve your anxiety, not only with medication.
    Beholder
    Beholder
    Before the event, I could relax surrounded by hundreds of people. After the event, sitting at a table made me cold sweat with heavy breathing, slowly losing sensation in my body while feeling like I would pass out at any moment.
    Got antidepressants prescribed by my doctor today and reading about all the potential side effects. If detecting any of them, I am supposed to contact my doctor, but I already have pretty much all of them before taking the first pill, such as memory loss, confusion, tiredness, fainting, high heart rate, sleep problems, speech impairment, muscle pain, secreting smelly hormones, diarreah, vomiting, headache, shaking, indigestion, rashes, back pains, dizziness, et cetera. The remaining side effects can only be detected using blood samples or are related to milk production.
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    MODAT7
    One of the pills the docs put me on was supposed to treat depression, but it gave it to me really bad. Same thing with a restless leg syndrome pill. Doc gave me a real funny look with that one. Needless to say that I've got a $2000 bag full of old pills. Docs don't understand that sometimes the treatment is worse than the original problem. If your "et cetera" symptoms go really bad, you should definitely go to the hospital.
    PaulaJedi
    PaulaJedi
    It can take a few weeks for antidepressants to work. The first few days are usually the worst when it comes to side effects.
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    Must be hard being the confused diversity model forcing a tense smile in an awkward toothpaste commercial focusing on whiteness and power.
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